Another Sunday afternoon,
I've been neglecting this blog,,,shame on me. Excuses? I've got a lot,,,and they are all true but none of'm, really is one,,,
Where do you start when a lot of time has passed by? I moved recently,,,found a new appartement, close to where my daughter lives,,,Now,I'm a city girl,before I lived in a village,,and I grew up on a farm,,,maybe the circle is round ,,,I am where I'm supposed to be.
I'm fifty,,,and life goes on, maybe a lil slower,,,there are aches,,,and there is my memory that sometimes doesn't do it's job,,,lil things are a bit harder but the smiles are still there,,,maybe I don't laugh as much as I did,,,but I smile a lot more,,,,
So,,,,what's left ? I'm sorta happy,,,not discontented,,,not by far !
Ofcourse there's the struggle to get all bills payed,,,the fight to meet the goals I need to reach,,,there's work,,,things to see,,,to do,,,
There are new things,,,things I love doing,,,there's Cosy Clan Radio : playing my music ,,, surprizing friends with tunes which make them smile,,,
There it is again : 'smile'. Which can mean so many different things : understanding,,, listening,,,knowing,,,sweet expectation,,,surprize,,,looking or listening to the one ya love,,,first baby steps,,,feeling the sun on my skin,,,watching my cat sleep,,,
There is that moment in a movie that brings on the tears,,,but ya keep'm inside and they turn into crystals ,,and ya view is suddenly blurry,,, remember the kaleidoscope ? Colors all flowing into eachother till ya forgot how the outside world looked like?,,,but it made ya smile,,,in wonder,,,
I've been listening to Joni Mitchell : I looked at life from both sides now,,,from win and lose and still somehow,,,it's lifes illusions I recall,,,I really don't know life at all,,,,
This is a rainy sunday afternoon and rather chilly,,,it's June and it's cold,,,and I'm kinda in tune with the weather,,,maybe the sun will come out,,,I do see a speck of blue through the raindrops. Ya know what?,,,There has to be something more,,,cause this is not all there is,,,not by far !
So,,,well,,,bring on the rains ,,,even the thunderstorms of life,,,I'll take'm,,,,with a smile !
